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Selma squeezed my shoulder and said quietly that the award did not change who I was. It just meant other people were finally being forced to see what I had been doing in plain sight. It was only that night, when I sat alone at my kitchen table with the information packet spread out in front of me, that the section about guests stopped feeling theoretical.
In the middle of the page was a simple sentence. You may invite up to four family members or friends. I stared at those words long enough for the ice in my drink to melt.
Another part of me, the smallest and angriest one, wanted them to see this, whether they understood it or not. By the time the sky over the desert had gone fully dark, I had made up my mind. I opened our family chat, wrote out a careful invitation, and sent it before I could shrink it into something they could ignore.
The night of the ceremony arrived faster than I expected. By late afternoon, I was in a hotel room downtown, standing in front of a fulllength mirror, while a stylist pinned the last edge of a dark dress into place. The invitation had called for formal wear, the kind of polished look I usually only saw in news segments and fundraising gallas.
Under the soft lights of the room, I looked like a version of myself I barely recognized. Someone people might actually stop and stare at for a moment before moving on. Downstairs, the event was already unfolding.
Security badges, check-in tables, and printed programs turned the lobby into a controlled maze. Staff members in headsets moved between clusters of guests. Each person there represented a category of service.
Public health. Education. Infrastructure.
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